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                 Copyright  2025  Black Women in Communications  LLC  
Copyright 2025 Black Women in Communications LLC
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September17


Sorry​ for such a late post. I was out catching lightening in a bottle 😉
Will post more on a next slow day. Have a beautiful Wednesday
#Loveu
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S​​​eptember 16


​Always in prayer, but my fast strategies vary​. Sometimes I  do a strict fast on bread and water for 7 or more days. Other times  its a daily  fast  until sunset or dusk...   Yesterday was until sunset, while not at all today-- but I will probably get back on track tomorrow thru Sunday.  Plus, next week is Rosh  Hashanah,  and, as always, I would llike to mark it in some way, but not sure what I will be able to do, so we'll see. Anyway,  just mild tea today. I'll have to post the strong tea in the members only edition 😉 Feel me?

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​Oh... but  about me not having  clothes. Heres the tea  on that: I have been robbed five times, so, consequently, not too much  left.  I made a lot of bad moves  at one point tho, and those bad moves  facilitated the robberies or at least made them possible. Lessons learned tho.  Of course, theres a little bit more to the story but thats the gist of it for now. The rest will be in the members only edition. Feel me?  😉

Anyway,  praying for all , and bouta take a beauty nap.

Vwyl

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S​​​​​eptember 15


​​Just do you diary ... ​its ok... #Loveu​​
But, omg... what in the thirsty heffa  was that about 😂😂😂



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​S​​​​​eptember  14


Whats good diary? Just poppin in​ for now, but Imma  post the tea next week ( probably tomorrow). Until then, stay beautiful , and have a beautiful Sunday ...   #Loveu 💕

Oh, and  sho u right ... (about the dill weed  that is). It  really does add a kick to  tuna mac  and tuna  salad.​ I learned that years ago.  Just saying​​​




S​​​​​eptember 13


​If I'm posting this late​,  it must have got real today... and it did (unnecessarily so , I might add), but I'm going to  fast and  pray next week, starting Monday, so its ok.  #Loveu  💕​




S​​​​​eptember 12



​​I found my Gramma's  recipe book  today ( turns out she had one afterall)​. But  guess who gonna be the guinea pig for those recipes ????

Hint: I hope you like soul food Buddy ( just saying)​  🤣🤣🤣​​​





S​​​​​​eptember  11


Have a good Thursday  #Loveu  ​​




S​​​​​​eptember 10



​Focused  on the positive​ and always in prayer.   Just saying​​




S​​​​​eptember  9


The rumor that I posted  late  today because I was  'laying  around all day thinking about  you  and what I was going to post​,'   is   FALSE.   

Actually, I was 'SITTING  around  all day thinking about you  and what I was going to post.'​  Big differemce.  So , don't git it twisted.

Happy Tuesday   💕


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S​​​​eptember 8


Broke a sweat today  over something truly  mundane (lol), but it is what it is  (don't ask).  Otherwise, just some hello juice for the diary... ​ and wishing all (including myself) ...  a good  day/week


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S​​​eptember  7


​Sorry for yesterdays angry tone. That was totally uncalled for, as I probably have no right whatsoever to refer to anyone ( real or imagined)  as a 'skank,' but  I guess the pressure  got to my head, so please forgive me. I promise that it will probably not happen again.  Anyway, I deleted  some of that, but left the part about 'gals who try to outdo me,' because them is  #FACTS ... Anyway, I might not post tomorrow,  but I be back 
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​#Loveu and thanks for sharing 💕
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​S​​​eptember 6


Early shout out, and shout out  to  a  Saturday rest day. I be back later 💕  Happy Rest Day  💕


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I don't know how celebrities work out  at public gyms. That is a luxury I no longer have , and  have not had in years.  Its ok tho. I prefer to have my own set  up anyway. The problem tho, is that I HAVE to have my own set up.  Its no longer my choice, and hasn't been in years. In most instances, theres a natural curiosity about me. In other instances, people are planted... but it is what it is. Just saying

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Most  gals  will jump off a cliff  to outdo me... and be speakin Russian while they doing it.  #FACTS




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​​​S​​​eptember 5


​I'll be glad when I can get back on a regular schedule around here. Until then,  this is another one of those better late than not at all posts.,  on just another regular ole day ... with me rising above it all -- not that I have to work at rising above it all. I just do ( rise above it all that is).  ​#Loveu
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S​​​​eptember 4


It rained  this morning  -- and it was kind of cold afterwards, but I loved the sound of it -- even tho it was  a chilly Fall rain​. It eventually warmed up tho,  so it was not  too  bad. But hmmm... lets see ... what else? Not too much really, except that, I lost one pair of sun glasses, and broke the other... but thats been a week or so aga, and its so typical, because I always seem to lose or break sunglasses, almost as fast as I get them. Ditto for umbrellas, which I tend to  lose.  Can't keep an umbrella or sunglasses to save my soul, but, whatever. Anyway, just another day in da hood.  

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S​​eptember 2


​​What a messy day... almost didnt get  to post at all, but the devil is a lie, so here I am ... better late than not at all. And otherwise just tryna do what I need to do , and also take my own advice by not letting  anyone or anything work my nerves. Anyway... see u.  Have a good night 💕


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​​​​​August 31


You may not always see me, but I'm here​. Just popping in sporadically at the moment or until further notice when I get my ' situation' resolved, but definitely not tomorrow. Imma be thinking about you tho.   But on  a completely  other note ...  I  never judge anyone, certainly not  people that I love, so, just fyi.  #Loveu


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​Not sure who needs to  hear this, but: don't let nobody/nothing work your nerves, cause that be the goal.​ Rise above it/them. And thats just on periodt.​​​​​
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A​​​​ugust 30


I always feel Gods presence, but  today more than usual. Sometime He just pull up ... and thats a good thing ( just saying) ​

vwyl

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A​​​​ugust 29


Just something really crazy  and  "out of this world" thats keeping the site down  at the moment. But its basically some hood drama ( don't ask) (lol).  Since I can't keep up consistently tho, this was the best option for now. Anyways, have a good weekend and holiday. #Loveu

Oh, and even tho the site is basically offline at the moment, you know Imma find a way to be like this here ​ 👀

You feel me ??? (lol)​
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A​​​ugust  28 


I'll be back
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A​​​ugust  27


Nothing much going on, just chilly and  really haven't been to sleep, so bouta take a  nap for an hour or two. ​ 

​vwyl  #loveu​

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A​​​​ugust 26


​Kind of sleepy this morning , so hadta catch a few extra  zzz's -- thus the late start. But I'm sure I'm not the only one who  needs a few extra zzz's and/or a rest day or two from time to time. So I hope everyone who needs a few extra zzz's  and/ or a rest day or two, gets a few extra zzzs's  and/or a rest day or two.  Just saying ...
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​I'm otherwise ok tho, because the struggle keeps me  grounded and tapped into situations that I would not  otherwise be privy to. So its cool. Besides, I  don't just look for the silver lining in every situation. I find it. And truth be told, I don't really see  any situation as a "struggle," because its  just life.  If its  a situation tho, its only because I'm already weirdly famous, so  I always have an audience, but even THAT is just what it is. I have to live in spite of the circumstances,  and do.

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A​​​​ugust 25


​I dreamed  I  bum rushed somebodys buffet (lol). It was one of those early morning dreams you have when you wake up at 3 am, then fall asleep again. Someone asked me if I had a ticket for the buffet ... and  I don't remember what I said, but whoever it was, said ,  '​oh never mind, you can stay,' (lol). So I stayed. Just a crazy dream I guess (lol).  Other than the crazy dream tho ... I'm just tryna make it do what it do.  You feel me?
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A​​​​ugust 24


For sure thinking about becoming a full time prayer warrior,  which  doesn't mean that​ I won't pursue other interests or activities. It just means  prayer will become  a  priority... a major player... not that it isn't already,  but going forward,  it will be even more so.  I want to get to  the point where I have  a designated time and place for  prayer. I want to  approach it very seriously-- even more than now. I was thinking about it last month, but am thinking about it again, but even more seriously now than before, because I know its something I have  and need to do. So I have to go at this prayer thing hard because its so necessary. And not being anxious about it,  just steadfast.  Among other things,  I find peace thru  prayer, and it helps with my understanding and helps me cope; to say nothing about the fact that  He's the best back up you can  ever have. So just thinking about that today. I know He is present in my life, thankful for that, but  not trying to take it for granted.
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A​​​​ugust 23
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Not sneezing as much today, but still a little under the weather. I be back.

P.S. I'm with you tho... even  if/when  I'm offline sneezing or whatever (justsaying)​ ❤️

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A​​​ugust 22


​I'm sort of catching a cold , so I will be under the radar  for a  minute,  while I deal with this sneezing fit. I be back tho.

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​​A​​​​​ugust 21


Owl mode  🦉 ...  dodging the mosquitos ​... and  always in prayer

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Just got caught up on the headlines and whatnot, so I guess the internet isn't so bad afterall. Its actually a really great tool when used correctly,  but a really bad tool when used incorrectly. One things for sure,  I'm a lot more informed than I would be without it, and I like being informed, but I sift thru it, and   know what to follow and  what to  avoid.

​​For now I'm bouta follow the sandman tho,  so , good night diary.... vwyl.

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A​​​​ugust 20


​I see you Wednesday   #Lit    #LoveU
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A​​​ugust 19


​Its starting to get chilly in the mornings, so Fall is right around the corner
(just saying, but trying not to think about it)
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A​​​ugust 18


I  deleted the entry that I added, so as to avoid negativity, but I be back .

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I posted a clap back in the blog earlier, but I decided to be the bigger person, so I deleted it, altho  I may repost it at some point, maybe even later. I'll have to see, but I can't just let people work my nerves. Once in a while I have to respond, but most of the time I do not.  Theres alot going on tho,  such as increased  amounts of attention  coming from all directions -- mainly from people who stay up in errybody bidness but they own 🙄 

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​I had that dream again .. about the birds chirping in the bright sunshine... except this time,I was talking to them... just  saying things like , 'how are you,' ' I  hope everything is ok,' and so on and so forth. And for whatever reason, I told them that I really like ice water (preferably alkaline water) and could drink it all day and sometimes do. I asked them what they like to drink, but woke up before they answered.  Weird huh? It seems to be a reoccuring dream tho, so maybe I will have it again. 

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A​​​​​ugust 17

 
​Still  experiencing  mosquito drama​, but its severe now, so there must be a nest somewhere. There  just has to be, because I have never seen anything like this.  And,  unfortunately, they just keep biting me.  Other than that, just anotha day in the hood ( if you know what I mean).  
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​​​​​A​​​ugust 16


​Up checkin for you (lol)  (real talk), but otherwise off da radar again... prolly tomorrow too... not sure, but I be back. 

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A​​​​ugust 15


​I'm off da radar​ today diary, so do you, just don't forget about me, cause I be back.  Luv u

​​P.S. Oh and by the way, stay awesome and sexy ... please and thank u ( and I'm  not getting fresh, just saying)

Vibe with you later
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A​​​ugust 14
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I had a set back last month , and progress came to a screeching hault, so just been  trying to  hang in there and regroup ever since.  Anyways, kind of bizzy today, but, no worries, Imma  rap to  you  later  (lol),  and/or over the next day or two. Until then... peace out diary. Luv  u


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​I got a little something done today , (as opposed to getting alot done),​ but a little something is better than nothing.  Plus, I'm just focusing on whats going right these days, not whats going wrong. Anyway, just checking in... cause I'm  about to go to sleep, but I'll be thinking about you ... and  will vibe with you later. Good night diary
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A​​​ugust 13


​Caught up on the headlines​ for the moment, but, truth be told,  the headlines are constantly updating, so, I'm not sure its ever really possible to  get caught up, because, as fast as I catch up, they've updated again (lol), but, for the moment, I'm as caught up as I'm going to be.   Speaking of headlines tho, I'm so glad to hear that Wendys  "current situation" will end in November -- November 5th to be exact ( according to the bloggers anyway), but just really glad to hear that, and hoping its true. In fact, I'll probably  barbecue that day and make home made ice cream and lemonade, pending a few tweaks and  blessings in my own life, as well as hers. I'm just waiting to see what happens tho, and hoping for the best outcome for her situation, as well as my own. The guardianship system is a real racket tho, and I've known that for years.  Some doctors will actually lie about a persons level of competency or incompetency, just to give the  court control over  the person and his or her assets. And  I got receipts  to prove it.  Then there are those guardians who continue to get paid for  their "services," long after the wards death -- sometimes years or months after the wards death. This actually happens a lot,  because, I have six documented cases of it.  In two instances, a third party had to file a "suggestion of death " with the court, despite that the  guardian should have notified the court of the wards death at the time of the wards death. Afterall, they get paid to do this. In one instance tho, the ward had died five years prior to the filing of the notice of suggestion of death. In  another instance,  the ward died  six months prior to the filing of the  notice, but same difference. If the guardian is doing his or her job  correctly,  the guardian should timely notify the court of the wards death, not continue to get paid in spite of it, because, guardianships terminate  immediately upon the death of the ward, and there is no exception to that rule.  Notification should not be provided by a third party, and certainly not years or months after the fact. The bottom line is that , people get paid to act as guardians , so they are obligated to handle their bidness, but often times do  not. Thats just one  type of drama that can  play out with this guardianship racket tho. At the end of the day, its a system that is fraught with problems and should be avoided at all costs. Ditto for nursing homes. ​​Just know that once you get caught up with eitiher, it is comparable to being tangled in a spiders web, and nearly impossible to escape ...for a whole hosts of reasons.  And I say that from a point of knowing, because I know more about  nursing homes and the guardianship system than I wish I did. And thats just on periodt. Both are to be avoided at all costs.

Shout out to Wendy  tho, and her ongoing drama, because, if anything,  this "episode" will raise awareness​ about a system that is fraught with problems.  
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Everyone knows that I love music, but what they don't know, is that some songs make me cry. Theres two categories tho.  There are those songs that I feel entirely​ , because of the lyrics, the melody, the  emotion, the artists delivery etc,  and so I cry  from start to finish.  And then there are those songs that trigger memories about people or experiences, so I cry for that reason.  Maybe I will talk about it online one day, and share the titles of the songs that  trigger me. Heres a hint tho: Of the songs in the first category, only one is contemporary (as in recorded within the past five years). Can you  guess which one it is? 👀👀👀
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A​​​ugust 12

​​I'm in owl mode today, which means Imma just peep some  stuff out, but say nothing 🦉
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Translation: Woke and aware  ...  but not reacting​ 🦉
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A​​​​​​​ugust  11


​Bizzy week diary... Hoping its positive and productive​, but as always, trusting Him to get me thru it.

P.S. Homepage down for a few days, but diary still  full throttle or semi - full throttle, so don't git it twisted.​

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I've been wondering if they still make Alpha bits cereal. I don't think they do , because , I can't find it anywhere. The internet doesn't show that its been discontinued tho. It just says that it may only be available in select areas. Just wondering which select areas  its sold in tho, because I literally can not find it anywhere. And it's not like I ate it that often, but every now and then I like a bowl of Apha bits. Just can't find it anymore or anywhere.        


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A​​​ugust 10


​It felt like it was  100 degrees when I woke up, so I checked , and, sure enough, it was 90 (same difference) . Not complaining tho, just saying  that its already hot, and its not even 8 am yet. Its ok tho, 'cause I love this weather, and Summer is my favorite season, so Imma just let this day be beautiful. You feel me ? 

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A​​​​​ugust  9


​My grandmother use to say, ' people who love you are always present, whether you see them or not,' so, you may  not always see me, but I'm  here or there (whatever the case may be). Luv u diary. u  awesome.
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A​​​​​ugust  8


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A​​​​​​​ugust 7


​Happy String Beans , Potatoes , and Cornbread Day diary ​!!! Luv u ... Enjoy
P.S.  I heard this bouta be a federal holiday, but  that might be fake news, cause so far its  still regional ( just saying). ​



A​​​​ugust 6

I'm so wide awake and all  wound up at the moment. Its as if I'm picking up somebody elses energy and/or whatnot, cause I should be  sleep. I think  its called an empathetic experience when that happens tho.  It means you feel what someone else is feeling. Anyways, I'm sure I 'll be asleep in an hour or so...but I'll vibe with you later​. 


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Up after a few hours  sleep... always in prayer.... sending good energy out, and hoping I get at least a little something done today.​​​​​


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Days be kinda crazy , if you know what I mean,  but  I stay in prayer and keep my eyes on  the Lord, which keeps  everything  in  perspective. In fact, I've learned  not to dwell on the stupid stuff. I mean, I 'm aware of it, but , for the most part, I've learned not to dwell on  or acknowledge it, because it is what it is , so I just try to stay in the light. You feel me (lol) ?

Anyways, I have a lot of stuff to do,  and am always busy  trying to get at least a little something done, so  just fyi. I'm ok.

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​​So,  technically,  it's still  Monday, but, since its almost  Tuesday, I'll  post it here. Anyways,  when I came in yesterday, I ate , took a nap, then ended up  having the strangest dream.  I'm not sure where I was, but wherever it was, it was Spring or Summer, the sun was shining brightly, and  the birds were chirping. The weird thing was that I could understand what they were saying,  told them that was a good idea, but also said "ya'll gotta work out the details." Then I woke up. It reminded me of  back in the day when I was growing up. Some  people had hen houses, and at least one rooster would crow every morning,  and some dogs would bark .  The dogs would bark back and forth like they were holding a conversation,  because, they were. The kicker was that,  some mornings, I actually understood what they were saying (real talk) , but only for a   minute, while I was half sleep. Once I was fully awake instead of half sleep, they were just barking dogs again. Still, some mornings, for a split second, I knew  exactly what they were saying. 

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I've been thinking about my grandfather alot this Summer... so I've been trying to pull together whatever memories I have.​​​​  Some days I miss him more than others, so , gathering my memories brings him closer. I remember that he would never say 'good bye. ' Instead, he would say, "So long," or  "See you in a recklin." And even tho I knew what he meant when he said, "See you in a recklin," I asked my mother what the literal translation was, and she said it was ,"See you indirectly," but it still didnt really add up. Since there is no reference  to it online tho, I will never really know, and  have written it off as some down home expression he brought up from the south ( Georgia). I just never heard anyone use that expression but him. Anyway, he brought donuts every Saturday,  always called me "baby," was  a hard working man who liked to take a nap  when he got in from work, and  was a numbers runner (and/or  was  part of what the internet refers to as 'the  policy racket of black America'). But the numbers runner thing was after he retired.   He was a real sweetheart tho, and a real bruh, if you know what I mean. I'm just glad I have these memories. They mean everything to me and have really sustained me.

Anyways, thats all for now diary, so goodnite.  See you in a recklin, and I'll vibe with you in my next post...​


​Btw, have I told you how awesome you are? Yes? No? Maybe?  Well, consider it done 😎
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But see, dats what I be talkin about tho  👀👀👀

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I watched Joel Osteen this morning​, or I should say , I watched the Lakewood Church live service , and was pleasantly reminded of what an inspiration the ministry has been to me over the years. Pastor Osteen just never ceases to say something that inspires me, or that I simply need to hear. And , the message is accessible to all, no matter where you are. So, whether you watch online or on television, its within reach, and will both enhance and sustain. I recommend it for all, whether you have a church home or not. 
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​​​A​​​​ugust 1


Seems unbelieveable that  its August already, but Summer always goes by so fast, altho it took forever to get here this year. In fact, I don't think it started to warm up until May -- late May at that, but once it got here,  we really couldn't ask for better weather. It's been  nearly perfect tho, and I will hate to see it end, because, for one thing, I'm not sure  I can take another Winter like this last one. It was abnormally cold -- artic cold, and I had severe frostbite,  which, thank goodness,  is  now about 90 percent healed. Yes, it took 6 months to heal,  and thats a crazy amount of time, but at least it healed, gradually, but healed nevertheless. And thank the Lord, because it could have been a lot worse.  But now I have mosquito drama , and theres no escaping that buzzing noise they make, plus these twenty  five  bites ( don't ask).  Anyways, thats all for now , so, Good  night diary. I'll vibe witchu  in  my  next post. 


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​​July 29


​​S​ome people and situations are genuine. Others are fake as a three dolla bill. Know the difference.

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I think about becoming a full time prayer warrior​, or  at least setting aside 3 - 4  hours each day for prayer, and/or, even setting aside a few weekends  each year, solely to  fast and  pray. Either/Or, I feel that prayer is a neccessity at this point, because there is just so much going on -- too much really. And there's no way to survive it without prayer, so I would be in prayer for peace and clarity ...  peace and clarity for myself, my  loved ones, my circle, and even the world at large.  I just don't think this world can be manuevered without prayer -- not successfully anyway. And the more you have going on, the more drama and  opposition you face. You feel me? So, be it a wolf in sheeps clothing, or just a straight up wolf, its coming for you  and your blessing by any means necessary.  That's  why, per Ephesians 6:10-18,  you  have to put on the whole armor of God aka  "a metaphorical set of spiritual defenses,"  to  get thru this thing called life, otherwise , issa wrap.  Long story short, the armor protects you, and helps you thrive.          Without it, you're just here, not thriving, not even living... just existing and subject to  the devils mess.  And thats not what God intended. He meant for us to thrive.  That's where the  Word comes in  (and Ephesians  6:10-18  in particular).   The Word is Gods glow up for your life, if you know how to use it.  Once you understand that, the devil can no longer trip you up or get in your head, but most importantly, he or she ( whichever the case may be) will get tired of trying. And thats just on periodt.


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The more I have, or the more some people think I have, the more  I am hated and envied. In other words, everybody don't love me, and I would be stupid to think  otherwise. Bottom line is, some people do not want me to be happy. Others have never wanted me to be happy. Its ok tho, because , for my part, I have to see people and situations for what they are... act accordingly... and keep moving toward Gods light. One things for sure, I no  longer have time to play with, or  get played by , people or situations who/that have been playin me my whole life. And thats just on periodt.

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I used to love recess when I was a kid ( ie. we went to the playground after lunch). The only thing better than recess was second  recess or extra​ recess. Thats when the teacher would say, " ok, if you kids are good, we'll go back out for recess this afternoon, " ( usually around 1 :15 ish ).  So , naturally, we were on our best behavior so as to get that second recess on those warm Spring days. Anyways, there were only so many swings, so, if you could get a swing, that was the best. ​ And then there was the merry go round. Two kids would get in the middle and push the rest of us. It was a lot of fun, except for that one time, when it was going so fast that I fell off (lol), and still have a scar on my elbow  to this day (lol). 

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J​​​uly 26


I love the sound of  crickets ... It's a throwback to my childhood no doubt, because it wasn't a Summer night in the country if you couldnt hear crickets , or see lightening bugs at dusk or evening. Speaking of lightening bugs tho, we use to catch one, place it in a glass jar, punch holes in the lid of the jar, and then chill. Unfortunately , the lightening bug was not meant to live in a glass bottle and/or without basic necessities, thus, it did not survive more than a day or two. We kept doing it tho ( ie. catch the lightening bug, place it in a bottle, punch holes in the lid ), only to get the same result. At the end of the day, the lightening bugs could not survive the environment that we subjected them to after we caught them -- for the simple fact that ... they were not meant to live like that. Very simply, and much like human beings, the lightening bugs must be in an environment where they can , not only live, but thrive. Needless to say, a glass jar aint it. Just wondering why it took me until now to understand that. But shout out to my big brother who use to catch lightening bugs with me back in the day : I miss you, and love you as much today as yesterday -- but not as much as tomorrow. And that just on periodt.​
  
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I also love the sound of rain   (another throwback to childhood when rain was plentiful  and natural...without cloud seeding).​​​ But guess what? I liked it before it was cool or popular to do so. Its a real thing now... with all of these rain videos on Youtube and whatnot, but I been likin the sound of rain, especially so when I'm in the right setting , because, otherwise, or if I'm not in the right setting, it hits differently (if you know what I mean).


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I miss Big Mama's sweet potatoe cobbler, black berry cobbler, tea cakes, mac n cheese,​ turkey, dressing , dress dogs and chicken dinners. She was the best cook ever... her and her sister that is ( my great aunt). No cook book, just her , her hands, instincts and memory. Oh, and did I mention her gourmet Kool Aid  ??? Now THAT I can duplicate. Big Mama stood on bidness when it came to that kitchen tho. And thats just on periodt.
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I miss my Big Papa too.​ His hands were beautiful, always smooth and manicured, with dimples at the base of each finger. I wonder somedays how  he managed to maintain such beautiful youthful hands, considering how hard he worked at the mill. I reckon it was just one of those things, because no matter how  the years went by, his hands stayed the same. And why am I the only one who remembers that he use to hum -- all the time no less ???  Oh, and on Thanksgiving, Big Papa would be the first person at the dinner table (lol)   (real talk). That is, Thanksgiving dinner was always at 3 pm, but Big Papa would  sit down at  1 pm (lol), and be grinning from ear to ear in his Mr Rogers sweater (lol). Those were the days. ​​Oh, and his favorite food ? Corn pudding. His favorite  artist? Ray Charles. I don't think he  cared for anyone else -- not that I can recall anyways.​​​​​​

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